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Chris Brown’s documentary reveals what he felt during Rihanna assault

19 April 2016 Entertainment News

Fourth Estate Staff

Los Angeles, CA, United States (4E) – A teaser for Chris Brown’s upcoming documentary called “Welcome to My Life: The Official Chris Brown Documentary” was released on Sunday and in it, he talked about his career as well as what he felt when he assaulted his then-girlfriend Rihanna.

As per the video, the trailer first showed the R&B singer sitting down a chair while sets of televisions were in front of him. The TVs showed how his career started and the big stars in the music industry who believed in him such as Usher, Jennifer Lopez, Mary J. Blige , DJ Khaled , and many more.

As the trailer progressed, it showed the troubles that Brown went through such as the assault he made on Rihanna. He said that during that time he felt like a “f*** ing monster.” Rihanna’s voice was heard in the background saying that “he made that mistake because he needed help.” Brown said that during that time, he was first on top of the charts, became America’s sweetheart then became public enemy number one.

Brown said in one part of the clip: “This is the first time I get to say anything.” The 26-year-old “Loyal” singer added: “I felt like a f–king monster. I was thinking about suicide, I wasn't sleeping, I barely ate…If there was ever a doubt in your mind Chris Brown was done, he was finished…I wouldn't bet on it.”

The 28-year-old “Work” songstress reportedly felt proud about the trailer but she is worried that the documentary will take her ex-boyfriend to a “dark place.” An insider shared, “It hasn’t always been easy for him to express his feelings publicly and she couldn’t be prouder for him with his documentary.”

The insider added that the day the assault took place, which was during the 2009 Grammy Awards when Brown hit her after she confronted him about a text from a former lover, is not something that Rihanna thinks about. The source noted that Rihanna has forgiven him for what he has done and that is what matters now. The probation regarding the Rihanna incident recently ended for Brown back in March 2015.

The source continued, “Rihanna knew what was up with his documentary and like she’s done most of her life, she supports it. Chris is working on himself and trying to be the best man and father he can.”

It is unclear when the documentary will be released and Brown only tweeted the trailer but did not give further comments.